The Green Lion

I ended up waking up with the sun at 9:22AM; I had set an alarm, but had not reacted to it, and when I got up to drink a glass of water, I noticed that the drawing I had been convinced was still at the psych ward sat on my kitchen table. Because it´s in … Jatka lukemista The Green Lion →

Backtracking

God damn it; I just went through all the papers and stuff that I had taken back home from the hospital, and realized that the most important drawing I did, the one I did on the night between the 10th and 11th of December 2024, depicting the Queen of Wands and describing a prophetic dream … Jatka lukemista Backtracking →

My Little Firefly, Part One

Once upon a time there was a little tin soldier who came out of the mold not quite right. Anyone who saw him could have sworn that he was a little tin doll instead! But he was who he was, and according to his nature, he fought anyone who claimed otherwise. But the toymaker who … Jatka lukemista My Little Firefly, Part One →

New Moon

It´s New Moon, the last of November, and tomorrow marks the First Advent Sunday of 2024. May tomorrow bring me hope and release and a strengthened sense of my fate as a parent to come. May I be filled with intention and courage in the face of all my hardships, and the cunning to prevail. … Jatka lukemista New Moon →

Grounding Exercise

The previous post was so gross and distressing to write that it opened a flood door of despair about my current situation. But despair won´t help me. I need to look at the facts of the situation and make necessary changes to deal with whatever needs to be dealt with. I am highly distressed about … Jatka lukemista Grounding Exercise →

Milk Bread

My experience and perception of the world around me is deteriorating rapidly, and yet, somehow, I´m not anxious at all. I feel very similar to how I felt last fall, except that this time I am not fasting and doing penance, but instead eating healthy and taking my prenatal vitamins. There is something powerful in … Jatka lukemista Milk Bread →

Baguettes

So I spent the Tuesday evening filing a formal complaint to the regional state administrative agencySo I spent the Tuesday evening trying out a baguette recipe while I rassled with the ´plaintSo I spent the Tuesday eveningwriting a bad poem that doesn´t rhyme: I´m a prose boy through and through.Wednesday, the cards said, something big … Jatka lukemista Baguettes →

The Morrigan

How does culture and heritage and appropriation work in the context of dead (?) gods? Can gods truly die? If I am connected to the Finnish soil, do I have the right to feel drawn to a deity from beyond the Steel Wool Sea? There are chtonic deities galore in here, after all, or at … Jatka lukemista The Morrigan →