There is no difference between nature and society; society is nature, albeit a hyperstructure thereof, just like how a beehive or a beaver dam is a hyperstructure: it is of nature, but organized and upheld by organisms. I am facing a primal dilemma within the framework of such a hyperstructure: Simon says, doctors say, society … Jatka lukemista Natural Selection
Kategoria: Evocation
Black Onyx
What makes a stone a stone? As a gemstone hobbyist, I don´t believe the stones contain any kind of magical or supernatural properties. I do, however, believe in my own responses to the symbolism assigned to them and my own reactions to the feel and look of them. I have purchased two pieces of obsidian … Jatka lukemista Black Onyx
A New Chapter Awaits
Tomorrow I will begin an important process: being evaluated by an art therapist. I do not know what exactly she is evaluating me for, but she does work for the trans clinic, so if I can nail her evals and give a realistic and positive impression of myself, the 5 hours I´ll be spending with … Jatka lukemista A New Chapter Awaits
Prophetic Dream
Last night, a wonderful time with a bird of the feather. A meal, a walk, a talk, the body left feeling soaring, happy, content, the opposite of alone. At home I could tell my body wasn´t quite over the flu yet, but I was thinking about Biblical Joseph, son of Rachel and Jacob, who was … Jatka lukemista Prophetic Dream
Offline Online
Today: got cautiously good news regarding finances. But now I'm facing a challenge regarding possible fertilization treatments. No capacity for details now. Act; dream; proceed on instinct. Low point came and went. From now on, survival will require a sunny, bright disposition. Woke up from a nap with strangest dreams. Tonight's the night for the … Jatka lukemista Offline Online
Aspens Whisper
It´s said that when the wind shakes the leaves of the aspens, you can hear the dead whisper; but on this January night between Saturday and Sunday, there were no leaves in the aspens. The cold wind bit and yapped at their trunks and their skeletal fingers reaching towards the sky. Did you know that … Jatka lukemista Aspens Whisper
If I Had A Kid
If I had a kid and it inherited my OCD, I would teach it to have a spare toy for traveling that would be just a soulless effigy for any actual toy at home. This way Bear couldn´t get lost, Pony´s wings wouldn´t come off, and if the spare met it´s demise, we could go … Jatka lukemista If I Had A Kid
The World Holds Its Breath, Or Is It Me?
Pines behind the hospital window, their needletips dipped in rosy sunstain. Financial opportunity lost for good, it seems. Wheel of Fortune spinning clock and counter, counter and clock. I look out for signs of green. Either change came and swept away my future like the lick of a wave wipes the shore clean, or it … Jatka lukemista The World Holds Its Breath, Or Is It Me?
Snap Out Of It, Bitch
Time to quit wallowing and try and save what there is to be saved. Egg harvesting might still be possible, and it won´t hurt to try. The age limit for that at the public sector is 38, so once again, time is a factor, but there´s 3 months until the 37th birthday of our legal … Jatka lukemista Snap Out Of It, Bitch
Faux Fur
I had restless dreams; in one of them, the Finnish Olympic swimming team had been bragging about being able to train a new swimmer in two weeks, and I was chosen as the trainee by the die. I failed in the competition, and was made fun of by both the trainer and the audience. Afterwards … Jatka lukemista Faux Fur
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