2026 is starting with good news: one of my friends is pregnant, another just got married. I feel a deep sense of contentment most of the time, and am happy in my liminal state. Hinge has turned out to be more bountiful that I expected. Still, although I know I shouldn´t, or the world tells … Jatka lukemista Dreams Come True
Curiosity
Last day of Eligos' week. I am sketching the first draft of this text on Friday, well in advance, and I'm wondering whether or not I ever wrote anything about the grimoires I've used as sources for my demonic inspiration. I think I did, but I might just as well revisit this topic for my … Jatka lukemista Curiosity
Baby
It´s night and there´s snow, so much snow covering my city, and the air is full of tiny shards of ice, and it is all so beautiful that it hurts. You are out there and I may know you already or I may not; but tonight I understand it as crystal-clearly as the ice being … Jatka lukemista Baby
Hatching
It is cold outside and warm and clean inside, my two chinchillas enjoying fresh hay and pellets in their cages. I have vacuumed the cages and scrubbed the wooden shelves with vinegar. Feeling content, I hit the shower and notice that my back has changed shape. The way my subcutaneous fat is sitting is no … Jatka lukemista Hatching
Beautiful Everyday
I do not know what dreams I had, and I woke up a bit wistful from them, but my day picked up from there. I was reminded of the animated series The Boondocks, which I watched at some point during the last decade, and I want to revisit it at some point. I think the … Jatka lukemista Beautiful Everyday
The Banality Of Evil
I know I said at the beginning of Eligos´ week that I don't give a shit about lords, but I realized that if it were possible for us trans folks to get accepted and supported by people in power, perhaps the Finnish trans clinic system would have to actually start providing healthcare instead of what … Jatka lukemista The Banality Of Evil
Grimour
It was close to Sunday-Monday midnight and -13C when i walked to get a faux fur coat for fitting from the post. It´s amazing how quickly the body adapts to changing temperatures, towards the colder temps anyway: I was perfectly comfortable even though my breath would frost onto my clothes. I am in slight discomfort … Jatka lukemista Grimour
My Distant Desire
It is 1AM on a Sunday and I feel a flood of inspiration fill me up like an Ace of Cups. I have been nagged by worries due to having had to go through old medical documents for the student loan pardon application, with all the distress related to the birthing of those documents rushing … Jatka lukemista My Distant Desire
Future
Saturday. I get my weekly volunteering done and resist the temptation to go back to bed afterwards. Instead I slip my sneakers on, bundle myself up in a big faux fur coat, grab my keys, and head out. When Nera was still alive, going out three times a day with nothing but my keys and … Jatka lukemista Future
Wolves & Waters
They are killing wolves in Finland, 12 down on the first day of January, with permits for 100 murders of the men and women and children of the forests. My heart hurts for them. I remember being a child and watching the news with hunters gathering around the corpse of a wolf, blood dripping out … Jatka lukemista Wolves & Waters
Lähiönoita 