4 AM, first of May. Shortly before midnight I felt a jolt of energy and set to do some green magic. I repotted the mango tree I grew from the seed of the fruit I had bought while hospitalized, and buried a sunstone and a moonstone pearl in the soil. I took cuttings from my … Jatka lukemista Mayday
Kategoria: Evocation
Her
My violin is home. I had an awful migraine when picking her up. The luthier told me her bridge is too low, but didn´t fix it at the time for reasons. (Memories flooding back of being told it´s good as a low one for my weak lady hands anyway. Snobby, sexist classical musicians, fuck the … Jatka lukemista Her
Foliate Head
The night before my IUD insertion I received an encouraging message from a friend telling me he´d try to get my eggs harvested if he were me, no matter how slim the chances might be. I thanked him with a wolf and goat horn emoji combo, and fell asleep to restless dreams where the milky … Jatka lukemista Foliate Head
Nadir
The joy of a low point is the knowledge that things must be on their way back up; New Moons are dark, but arrive with the promise of increasing light. I fell asleep without brushing my teeth last night and slept like the dead. On Wednesday morning, the cold sore on my lip had grown … Jatka lukemista Nadir
Blessed Equinox
Merry Spring Equinox, everyone. May all things be balanced, may there be birdsong, may there be growth, may there be revelations.
Blue Shadows, Black Flame
I had strange dreams. At first I was stuck in a mansion, waiting for something awful to happen, with my parents around and acting as if all was well, busy arranging a dinner. Luxurious items, furniture, all brand new and fancy, but depravity and rot underneath it all. The two white whippet dogs from the … Jatka lukemista Blue Shadows, Black Flame
Natural Selection
There is no difference between nature and society; society is nature, albeit a hyperstructure thereof, just like how a beehive or a beaver dam is a hyperstructure: it is of nature, but organized and upheld by organisms. I am facing a primal dilemma within the framework of such a hyperstructure: Simon says, doctors say, society … Jatka lukemista Natural Selection
Black Onyx
What makes a stone a stone? As a gemstone hobbyist, I don´t believe the stones contain any kind of magical or supernatural properties. I do, however, believe in my own responses to the symbolism assigned to them and my own reactions to the feel and look of them. I have purchased two pieces of obsidian … Jatka lukemista Black Onyx
A New Chapter Awaits
Tomorrow I will begin an important process: being evaluated by an art therapist. I do not know what exactly she is evaluating me for, but she does work for the trans clinic, so if I can nail her evals and give a realistic and positive impression of myself, the 5 hours I´ll be spending with … Jatka lukemista A New Chapter Awaits
Prophetic Dream
Last night, a wonderful time with a bird of the feather. A meal, a walk, a talk, the body left feeling soaring, happy, content, the opposite of alone. At home I could tell my body wasn´t quite over the flu yet, but I was thinking about Biblical Joseph, son of Rachel and Jacob, who was … Jatka lukemista Prophetic Dream
Lähiönoita 