It is getting closer, clearer, your image, your scent. Decarabia showed me a mirage of you on week 37, and that abandoned black baseball cap in the park gave me a lead last week; the man I used to call dove gave me a broken pathway, and finally your voice gave me the color of … Jatka lukemista Tasting You
Kategoria: Evocation
Appleblossom
I desire to look youthful. I think this is a common wish and can be an ailment in a society obsessed with looks, but what can I say? I´m as vain as the next person. I hit the gym for some cardio today and was reminded that I need to get myself some grippy socks … Jatka lukemista Appleblossom
Trailriding
The first hour of Friday was misty, the dead up and moving in the shadows. I got myself some reindeer meat and a liter of soy milk, whistled before entering the forest, and ate and drank my dinner in the mist. I heard a fox scream. Great night. The angel said to the women, “Do … Jatka lukemista Trailriding
Question
Dove, it is Monday afternoon as I´m writing this, and I´m ugly crying, and the howling that erupts from deep within my snake-coiled chest is a man´s voice; never heard before, never consoled, never witnessed, only promised of, whispered of, and feared in advance. I am not crying for my own sake but out of … Jatka lukemista Question
Yip Yap
Sunday arrived with guests: my mother and her new puppy visited, as well as my nibling, who is always a delight to see. It´s interesting that now that I´m on testosterone, it´s like my past no longer holds me captive. My mother is just a woman among others, and it is specifically because the familial … Jatka lukemista Yip Yap
Anti-Indoctrination
Saturday was a big day, dove, to me here and to you there, but for different reasons. Yours I won´t discuss publicly of course, but I´ll display my own, though through the window of alchemical vaguety, preserving that precious degree of separation from reality I´ve mentioned before. I reached a milestone and was knighted into … Jatka lukemista Anti-Indoctrination
Invisible
Early Sunday hours, and once again I can not sleep - so why not get the next week´s demon introduced, dove, and this one´s a treat! Bael is the first demon of the Ars Goetia. He is a principal spirit, a King ruling over the East, and is capable of making people invisible. He can … Jatka lukemista Invisible
New Graces
Early Wednesday hours. Not even a sleeping pill helped cut the coil of thoughts pulling me deeper, making it hard to know if what I feel towards you is just a delusion or a genuine flicker of beautiful hope. It's strange how little trust I have in myself, when back at the gym I felt … Jatka lukemista New Graces
Hotel Liminal
Spaces that belong to no one are powerful, and under capitalism they are also exceedingly rare. Almost everything is owned by someone or something, but consider a hotel: the building is owned by a faceless chain, your room is yours for a night or few, but whose are the corridors? I´ve been to more hotels … Jatka lukemista Hotel Liminal
Shake Up
Saturday. I traveled to see my sister and her seeing eye dog, and as always, any change to my routine filled me with a sense of dread, as much as I wanted to see her. We had lunch and a walk, and it turned out that her key didn´t work, even though it had worked … Jatka lukemista Shake Up
Lähiönoita 