Winged Wednesday

Wednesday: strange dreams. The muscle I pulled on Wednesday is giving me grief, but not too awfully. I hope the student loan situation could be fixed post haste, because I really need to fix my very effeminate leg tattoo; but I know that whenever my brain goes to this place (knowing that the solution exists … Jatka lukemista Winged Wednesday →

Return Of The Dazzle Camo

Tuesday morning: I have not been able to sleep a wink. I know that my desire to get back into martial arts is, in part, an attempt of making peace with my childhood. Until I started to associate more with my family and my nibling, I had an easier time seeing my family of origin … Jatka lukemista Return Of The Dazzle Camo →

Dreams Come True

2026 is starting with good news: one of my friends is pregnant, another just got married. I feel a deep sense of contentment most of the time, and am happy in my liminal state. Hinge has turned out to be more bountiful that I expected. Still, although I know I shouldn´t, or the world tells … Jatka lukemista Dreams Come True →

Curiosity

Last day of Eligos' week. I am sketching the first draft of this text on Friday, well in advance, and I'm wondering whether or not I ever wrote anything about the grimoires I've used as sources for my demonic inspiration. I think I did, but I might just as well revisit this topic for my … Jatka lukemista Curiosity →

Baby

It´s night and there´s snow, so much snow covering my city, and the air is full of tiny shards of ice, and it is all so beautiful that it hurts. You are out there and I may know you already or I may not; but tonight I understand it as crystal-clearly as the ice being … Jatka lukemista Baby →

Angel´s Resolution

Last day of the year has begun, and I walked to the grocery store hungry as a wolf to buy myself bacon, wieners, eggs, potatoes, cheese and rye bread as New Year´s treats and hearty meals to keep me motivated to venture out into the tightening cold spell. I love winter and I love the … Jatka lukemista Angel´s Resolution →

Take Two

I thought this whole day that I´m having a doctor´s appointment tomorrow, but I was wrong - makes sense though, considering I am dissociating quite heavily due to the trigger date of 6.12. messing with my head. Tuesday morning will find me at the clinic for trauma psychiatry, and I guess the less expectations I … Jatka lukemista Take Two →

Over the Obstacle

My body and mind are exhausted. My neck and head hurt. Hunger is starting to get to me and I have neither energy nor motivation to get anything done. Gravity pulls me down. I wish I could afford to buy protein. I wish I could afford to buy a mop. I threw the old one … Jatka lukemista Over the Obstacle →

Thirteenth Weapon: Striking Frost-Flowered Spear

Last night was beautiful. My many worries were swept away by the gorgeous serpents of Aurora Borealis painting the night sky green as I made my way to the gym, dressed way too lightly, so I had to make my own body heat. My gym session was lackluster from a lack of food, and on … Jatka lukemista Thirteenth Weapon: Striking Frost-Flowered Spear →

Post Cat Clarity

I mmmean this as no offense, but Sitri's week has been exhausting and I'm glad the next one will bring something a bit less visceral and much colder. Beings as filled with joie de vivre as Sitri will burn a mortal body out. I managed the week with little harm other than calloused feet and … Jatka lukemista Post Cat Clarity →